I'm not sure just when it happened, but at some point between when my kids were in the young childhood stage and now, my friends stopped being the parents of my kids' friends. When I was younger and my kids were younger, we enjoyed meeting up at the park with 'our friends' or having people over so we could see all of our friends. With homeschooling, it isn't long before the lengthy days of school prevent regular afternoon playing. Somehow between that, personalities, and aging we are no longer part of the 'lets meet up at the park' crowd. The moms of my children's friends can be people I was once close to, am close to, really don't know, am just getting to know, or somewhere in between. Intermix a rather significant life situation, aka minor life crisis, and the dynamic changes. Intermix a change in your homeschool group, and it is akin to a nail in the coffin.
Today was a nice day to reminisce of how it used to be, and how I hope it can be again one day. I miss how life was when my kids were younger and everything felt easier and more carefree. I'm not sure why reaching 40, with all it encompasses, has been so difficult for me. I miss who I used to be, when time felt more on our side.
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