Something the Lord has been teaching me this past year is that I simply can't do all I might wish to do, but I need to prayerfully consider how to use the available time He's afforded me. There's only so much time in a day, but there's also only so much bandwidth mentally and emotionally available to expend. Certain fixed responsibilities consume what we have to offer, and after that, we must divide up our resources carefully. This is a reality of aging for this writer, though others who know me best might say it's always been true, apparently I'm just now realizing it. Probably because I'm at capacity, or very near it, most of the time.
I think in terms of "big rocks in the jar", and that is the monthly gathering for this ministry. There's planning and shopping, plus texting and emailing. Sometimes there are phone calls, but those are the smaller rocks. There's cleaning and food prep, the event, and then more cleaning and laundry and rest. There is card writing, because at least I can do that when the health challenges come.
Goodbyes are hard. Seeing the strength of the ladies and their love of God is a gift, even as they diminish here. One sweet friend got to say goodbye to us all and that was precious. Another passed and we thought we'd see her again. And now another has left this temporary home and is with her King. In about a month's time, our group has lost these three sweet friends. It's helpful knowing our loss is Heaven's fullness! Each widow had beloved family that had gone on before them, and each loved God and was a born again believer.
I hope I'm brave like those who were brave. I hope I love like these girls love. They have become such inspirations and a source of comfort to me the past 2 years. I'll miss JG, AMB and TL. It was a privilege to be involved in their lives in a small way.
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